This post is from Wilson Alvarez.
Today was a hard day.
Sugar coating the truth would only be false
making it easier to swallow for you and for myself
See, when you choose to really love something
and love it deep
you give up a piece of yourself that is dedicated wholly to that thing 24/7, 365
thinking -caring-worrying-contemplating-enjoying whatever it is or whoever it is you’ve chosen to love
to love is to give
to love hard is to shatter
to love like I do it takes all I have.
To see my son crying in pain is to physically feel pain.
In Lurianic Kabballah, they describe God creating the universe by shattering himself to pieces ( since God was all and everything) A spark of God is in everything since God is the raw material we are made up of.
I have always felt that truth
To love hard is to destroy and create anew.
Revel has an ear infection
He barely smiled today
I didn’t smile at all
To love like I love my son is a dangerous kind of love
teetering on madness or wildness or both but its how I feel
To love this hard is to be a shattered vessel
unable to contain anything else yet whole
Tomorrow he will awaken and feel better or the same
And I will be at my post, holding constant guard against the world
The world is broken I can feel it. Hope is thin and fleeting for me
But when he laughs again
and you ask me about the world I will say
It seems bright, its going to be fine!